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MY LJ IS NOW FRIENDS ONLY DUE TO RECENT EVENTS
COMMENT AND I'LL DEFINTELY ADD YOU!
THANKS! <3
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[02 Dec 2004|09:35pm] |
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well dad said he'd "think about lying for me" so i can go to nextbigthing. but he is almost certain i can go to spill canvas next weekend. so thats good! but no anberlin tomorrow...=/ i can only lie so much. so yeah, its all good.
there was a song to how i feel right now, but dammit cant remember it. grrrr.
but yeah...right now im just confused. i cant take this...stuff anymore. im just gonna let life take its course and not try to affect it anymore...at least for awhile. uh...yeah.
my posts never make any sense after i read them. oh well.
<3
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[01 Dec 2004|11:26pm] |
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so dads ok. he came back home tuesday evening after being missing since sunday morning. i tell mom im going on a walk. she says do your homework and chores first. i do them. i go on walk. i detour to fathers house. hes asleep. he wakes up 10 minutes later. we talk. he says he didnt contact anyone(me, his girlfriend, and his parents left LOTS of messages) or come home because he had a nervous breakdown. (due to a worker of his he trusted who stole 1000 bucks and the truck drving back from naples where auction was broke down). well, supposebly this "breakdown" caused him to revert to old...bad habits. so hes gonna check into hospital for awhile i believe. and i had to take his car keys. many tears and such. blah blah blah. fuck.
oh and on lighter note: my mole project pun is Jim Mole-isson(Morrision) as in singer from the Doors. Copyrighted by Mike.
and lotsa shows i MAY sneak my way into:
the spill canvas(dec 11)- most likely
anberlin(dec. 3)- eh...hopefully
nextbigthing4(dec. 5) - not sure
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[28 Nov 2004|06:13pm] |
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fuck...i havent heard from my dad in...12 hours now...what the fuck do i do? i gotta go back to moms...she will most liekly notice hes not here then shes gonan use it against him in court. then ill be stuck living with that nazi. FUCKING sdgffgfkgl
well that is if the fucker is alive. prolly got fucked over by one of his bitch friends that i dont liek very much. or just ODed on some fuckign drug.
just liek old times.
and when(if) he does get home...ill be the worried son...not giving him any shit for worrying my ass off and not returning my calls. yeah thats what'll happen. cause im a pansy bitch.
dammit dammit...please, someone...seriously kidnap me. it'd be fun. or at least different. a change from this crap that is known as family.
sorry for complaining...=/
<3
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[27 Nov 2004|09:34pm] |
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Autumns monologue-fata |
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uh...i guess thats right
EDIT:
Take the quiz: "How emo are you?"
Holy Shit Your Emo
Holy shit you actually are emo! Congratulations on not being a poser.
oh wonderful. lol
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[27 Nov 2004|09:08pm] |
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lilacs and lolita-from autumn to ashes! |
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THAT makes me happy. =D
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[27 Nov 2004|02:01am] |
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oh FUCK. there i am. with shorter hair...and a flower...look at the pretty flower. not the hair. >_<
comment your opinons. <3
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[27 Nov 2004|01:33am] |
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yeah, how long does it take for hair to grow back...?
i MISS it.
me>loser
im wearing a flower in my hair. oddly, it makes the haircut look better. lol
**sigh**
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[26 Nov 2004|11:44pm] |
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Well,i got my haircut. It looks really bad. And this time..its SHORT. I decided to try it cause dad said if i do i can see sam(who was visiting til tomorrow) for a while tonight and he'd kinda unground me...whatever...but yeah i got to see sam with ariane and billy. I look like a girl...so i was told...but i guess i do. But sam made me feel soooo much better! ^_^ So we frolicked and such around steak n shake and ballast point. Then i came home...and no one is online...NO one. =/ BUT i find all hail the heartbreaker on purevolume(i didnt have it on this comp) and dled it. So now im listening to it. I feel...worse...cause its so sad...but i listen to it anyway.
wtf is wrong with me... v_v
i would post pic but its toooo depressing.
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[26 Nov 2004|11:07am] |
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Let it enfold you-senses fail! |
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well, turkey day was pretty good. my cousins amelia and melanie came down and they are very cool. got 50 bucks from grandma for christmas presents so plus that equals...uhh 90 dollars. not sure bout next big thing anymore, and dads being bithch bout buying bright eyes tickets. so i may not pay for either of those. then this weekend im working with dad in his big auction his business is hosting down in naples. moving shit and posting stuff on ebay. i think hes paying me minimum wage. so ill get more from working, so ill be a little rich bitch! that means...presents for people!!! =D
oh! and i saw new star wars trailer!!!! fhkmklikii; i was...shivering...hahahahahha. im cant wait til it comes out. =]
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[22 Nov 2004|08:54pm] |
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wow, and i thought my parents couldnt take away anything else.
they decide to take away my computer speakers. i have no music WHATSOEVER now in this fucking prison due to them taking away my stereo from my room and ipod already. oh and my radio.
fuck...FUCK...fuck. i dont feel like sleeping tonight.
oh and billy, i left me cd player in your glove box and it would be awesome if i get that back sometime REAL soon. i really really am going crazy without music. ill prolly be at steak n shake late tonight, so maybe then?
thanks, <3
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[22 Nov 2004|06:36pm] |
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"your stabbing my heart....YOUR STABBING MY HEART!!!"
yeah, you are. but i love you anyway. <3
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[21 Nov 2004|03:47pm] |
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Afraid to breathe-Adair |
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"phone calls from another place,
these days they rarely come.
calls that I can't answer.
does it burn as bad for you
as it does for me?
I'm afraid to breathe.
I'd stumble for the words to say,
if we were face to face.
and minutes feel like years.
so it's been a million years or so
since you went away.
since you left me here...
every song.
every word.
every picture.
every song.
every word.
all for you.
so ill wait another year,
you're still my everything.
if you came back tomorrow we would never be the same."
the immortalized words of Adair. putting my thoughts into words. cause hell if i ever can.
fuck ass dammit!
hahahahhahahhaha, thats funny! heh....o.o
ok im done.
-Mike, <3 always
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[20 Nov 2004|10:02pm] |
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i never met another gemini- the bled |
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coffee LOOKS LIKE SHIT. i mean WOW. it looks -like- SHIT. i tried to make some earlier and got it everywhere and that fucking shit is STICKY(like shit) god i hate being sticky. so when i actually make it it TASTES like shit(im assuming of course). so of course i dilute it with lotsa skim milk and lotsa sugar. i put some brown sugar in there for a little extra something. i needed something to wake me the fuck up from the hour of sleep i got last night. not getting any tonight most likely.
assesment of situation:
coffee = shit
coffee + abnormal amounts of sugar and milk > shit
uh...the bled ROCKS! duh
sending the <3 out to my peeps!
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[20 Nov 2004|02:51pm] |
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Slander-keepsake!! |
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well not only to i feel better but saturday work detail was fun! made new friends, heehee. and took super long shower! so now im wet. and trying to do homework. ewwwy.
<3
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[18 Nov 2004|07:07pm] |
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wow i really dont like horseradish. its the antichrist. and its gross. and it BURNS. and its really smelly!
but besides this, i was home most of day due to sickness. schoolitis. its rampant throughout the youth nowadays. just wanted to warn everyone...
<3
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[16 Nov 2004|04:13pm] |
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i dont have strep but i have bronchitis! oh damn.
uh...next big thing 4! CANT wait.
<3
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[15 Nov 2004|10:35pm] |
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you know who's seatbelt-the BLED |
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arg, big latin test tomorrow. im not ready...=/
hmm, underoath show tonight that im missing. cassie went but i couldnt...=/
but!
i have a popsicle. =D
<3
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[12 Nov 2004|04:43pm] |
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A song for a broken heart-a static lullaby |
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this goes out to your judmental people relating to drugs and/or drinking.
f-you you ignorant FUCKs. my fucking father was a coke,heroin, and CRACK addict, and a horrible alcoholic. i feel comfortable talking bout it, though im not sure if i have coped well with it. my dad admits his flaws almost too easily; i can never trust him again. when he told me he is a new man...how can i trust him? well, i CAN do it in moderation and because of my dads mistake i know wtf im gettimg myself into and its fine if used properly.
seriously, you ignorant fucks out there, your the LOWESt form of human after what i have been through with my dad. fuck you. you dont fuckin KNOW.
oh and thank you so much liz for the group invite...i think i could really use it. thanks a lot...<3
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[11 Nov 2004|08:45pm] |
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Everything is Beautiful when you dont look down-Glasseater |
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last night was sooo awesome. so, i snuck out aorund 1230, billy picked me up with travis. woke up liz. i provided the alcohol and billy friend clark dropped off an eigth of mids. so...we proceeded to get fucked up! travis' first drunk experience, he was fun. =] so...basically that was what we did. oh and we walked to park...heh that was a trip. then we walked back. then i had to start heading home, but blly, liz, and travis being the awesome people they are walked me home. i love them. =D
but yeah...to those people who may judge...it seriously helps me. im soo goddamn lonely stuck with my nazi-fuckin parents, i need some sort of release. i can only take so much. but yeah whatever. i had so much fun!!! =D!
<3 to liz, billy, and travis. you rock!!! <333333333333
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